my friend Rose says...
I'm always attracted to A-holes (right now I am trying to change the amount of time I say a curse, I'm sorta thinking it counts when I write, too), but I don't know if she's right.
Maybe I idealize some people or the way they interact with me. Maybe I'm overly optimistic (although I can't think of anyone who would accuse me so), or naive, or thoughtless.
Maybe I'm an impossible girl. The kind that doesn't really know what she wants but figured she would know it when she saw it. Like midnight telephone calls and sweet voices of new friends. And sleeping late, in warm blankets.
Maybe, just maybe...I think these guys aren't jerks in real life. They are just jerks to me, so that makes it ok
Maybe that's what I think.