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This is what it could look like when one completely deconstructs a life as one knows it, and how to build from the ground up. Alternatively, this is a fresh look at an old story. The fine art of falling apart.

guard rails

I almost got stuck on the ferry talking to a woman who screeched like Carmela Soprano this afternoon. I tried to break into her one woman 4 act play about her moving from Windsor for Northern Ontario, meeting a guy and then staying to work in the mines. She started talking about mining and how women aren't really encouraged to work there. After the first 15 minutes, I realised she had probably watched North Country too many times and probably fancied herself as a Charlize Theron look-a-like.

Pretending to take Buckley for a walk, I changed locations and almost barfed when I watched the water and scenery go by. I've decided I don't like the ferry anymore. All I can think about when I'm on it is what would happen if Buckley suddenly plummeted under the guard rails and into the water? Would I be brave enough to jump in or would I just stand there and weep like an idiot?

Home now. Driving into the city, I didn't feel like I was coming home. No sense of relief. No sighing as I passed the London city limits. Just...nothing. In all honesty, I don't think I've felt really like I had a home of my own since well...since I owned my house.

Slick streets, old songs and comforting movies. They must be my guard rails.
I did get a job, though. And the Matt Good concert is on Tuesday.

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  • Blogger Unknown says so:
    Monday, October 15, 2007 12:51:00 AM  

    I wish you lived close by. I wish like Kamra you just up and moved to SF. But then, I don't want to disrupt your life more than it already has been. SF is just so much more full of musicians and your people and art and muses but maybe it's too big. Not as big as NYC of course, but very big. Come visit if you can. We'll take you out! top